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i was riding in a car with some friends and my children, when some strange commotion started going on in the sky. I had this strange feeling come over me, that this was not normal and something big was about to take place. There were some lights fluttering around in the sky, not lights of this world, but of outer space. then there were these 2 people floating down from the sky. They had a beam of light and would search people with it. When the beam of light was directly on me i could tell they were reading my thoughts and what kind of person i was. Then I was put into this room with several other people who were getting sick by the moment. It was very hot and sticky in the room, and we weren't forced to stay there. It was almost like people were hiding there. I was sitting with my kids on a pew and i had 2 infants that i was holding. (I only have one infant) and i could feel the love of them, the innocence, the contentment, they didnt have a clue of all the monstrosity going on, and it was almost as if i were holding them just to feel security. i started looking around to find someone to ask what was going on, and this old woman who looked very odd and out of place looked at me like she was reading my thoughts and said "its the berry's, they will give you worms in your stomach" i turned away really fast because the look in her eyes scared the crap out of me. i went to find my toddler daughter so that we could get the heck out of that place and i found her in a line of people and rebelling to come with me. I didn't have the time nor the patience for her behavior and just felt like leaving here there on the spot. I went outside and it was liek the town had turned into this chapel. and the whole place was empty. not a soul or sound in sight. then i heard this woman and she was talking to another woman and they had that same ora about them that the old woman had, it looked as if they were guarding the doors meanwhile gossiping. so i quietly went another direction so they wouldn't see me. i went into this other area and ran into another woman a younger one sitting on a pew staring at me with a smirk on her face, and she was one like the others, and i knew that i could not escape and that was the end of teh dream.

Ok so a quick background the subject of my story has been my best friend for close to 8 years (boyfriend of a few months) and to be honest I can't imagine a day without him. We talked about everything. Well we both decided we had feelings for each other but after a fight over something that was fairly unimportant we stopped talking. It hurt me but I moved on and continued living life.

His life however started to spiral out of control he hung with the wrong people, smoked and drank, got in fights, and his grades slipped very low. He in general was a not an overly happy person and I knew that but I was mad and I didn't care, so when he would text after a bad break-up I would ignore him or be kind of a huge (you know what). Bad grades, bad relationships, and a school full of rude cruel people he decide enough was enough and he attempted suicide. And after attempting to hang him self and chickening out a few days earlier he decided one night to take a bottle of Tylenol PM with him to his room. With his parents and two younger sisters down staris he proceeded to ingest every pill in the bottle (approx. 23 pills) hoping to just drift off to sleep and be dead. Well after about 20 minutes he freaked out and got help. After having his stomach pumped and being clinically dead twice for a total of 5 minutes he smartened up. He is on anti depressants and he sees a therapist.

Now where was I you may wonder, I was unaware and we still were not talking. One day in January he texted me an we started talking we both realized we had been in love with each other for many years and decided to start dating. Well before we "officially" became an item he told me his story. For him i stayed strong but as soon as I was off the phone I cried for about 2 hours. It was the worst feeling I have ever felt knowing you were so close to loosing the person you love and thinking it was all your fault and you should have been there. How could i have missed the signs? Why wasn't I there for him? Unfortunately I wont get answers to my questions. My life is different in so many ways I can't take Tylenol or really any pill at all, I cry every time someone talks about suicide especially when you hear about the teenagers on line, and i have nightmares at least once a week.

I have signed up for a few suicide prevention walks, have switched my major to psychology to help prevent suicide, and raised a few thousand dollars for a couple suicide prevention groups. But my question is how has suicide touched you? Have you lost someone close to you? Have you attempted? Have you been fortunate enough to not have to loose someone close to you? What are your feelings?

Please be polite this not a light subject please go to another post to be rude. Thank you.

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I used what is below to answer a qestion about teen pregnacy; yes it is ture and its about me;
I really jus want to knaow what others think about it and if any on has any adivce. Im scared and dont really know where to turn. i have support i still jus dont know;

found out on the 3rd of march that i was 11 weeks pregnant; that makes me about 12 weeks and a few days pregant at 16! Yesterday me and my boyfriend/baby's father have been together for a year; i found out the news well i was at the doctors i thought i had the flu; normally my BF goes with me to the dr know matter what it for but he could go because he had to help his mom; so i went with my mom; when the dr told me i was pregnant i was dumbfounded; devistated; scared; shocked and ever other overwhelming emotion you can think about; i really did'nt have to go threw the telling my mom thing becaause she was there and she was pretty underdtanding; i mean i would say she was extreamly happy because what mother of a 16 year old would be. So teh car ride home was pretty qiut besides me saying i was sorry and my mom saying its okay we'll get threw this; so i went home and cried for about three hours; my boyfriend pretty much lives with me and when he came home he seen me crying; (i had not called him or said anything to him) and asked what was wrong; i jus stayed quit affraid of his reaction; i grabed his hand and held it and then put it up to my stomach; he looked at me like are you jokeing then said what are you saying; i told him that i was pregnant and he looked at me grabed my hands and kissed them. we laid in the same place for about 15 min in silence; he sat up and said im going to my mas do you wanna come with me. i told him no so he kissed me then my stomach and left' about 45 min later he showed back up to my house with his mother(he also has a one year old daughter and has recently been lied to about a pregnacie.) so she asked to speak to my mother and then asked if i would take a home pregancy test. i had no problem takeing it, it jsu felt like i was trusted; when the test came back positive she gave me hug and said that she would help me woth anything i needed.
So that was really the hard part telling the close people to me. And yeasteray we told his daughters mother, we figred it would be best to tell her before anyone of are other friends; i respect her and love there daughter. i thought she would be mad and have an attitude for with but she did'nt she pulled me aside while he was playing with his daughter and said i wants a kids to always know each other; (im not going to use the childs real name ill jus say mia) She said that mia's baby brother or sister and i want her to always no him or her. So that also was something i was glad did'nt turn out bad. And today i guess would be the hardest days. i went for my first ultrasound and was told i was pregnant with twins. so not only am i 16 and pregnant but when its all said and done. ill have 2 babys. the only other people that know are our really close friends and family. of course we plan on telling others were jus going to take it day by day. im very scared knowing that im going to be bringing in two new lives in to this messed up world being so young haveing nothing for my own being a sohmore in high school im very scared. i want to give these babys the best life possiable and give them eveything they need for now while i carry them in my womb to the day they meet there maker. and i would love to ahve the white picket fence and the high school sweetheart dream i live in the world of single mothers and devorce' i dotn want to ever see my children hurt or scared or upset but they will. i am affraid of loosing my boyfriend and haveing to do this alone and im affraid of loosing my friends and my life but i guess when you have sex with out protection anything is possable. like getting pregnant at 16 and beoming pregnat with twins.

I've been going crazy about this guy for a few months now. I've known him for a long time, and I know his type. He dates a lot of girls, but they never last long. He's the type of guy who thinks he's in love with a girl when he dates her, but later breaks up with her and loves someone else the next day. Well, when I started to like him, I foolishly thought that maybe I would be the girl that he could stay with for a while. Anyways, that's besides the point…

I was going to tell him that I liked him over instant messenger (it was late, so I couldn't have done it in person). I had stopped liking him a few days before that, until everyone started to tell me he liked me before, and he likes me now. Well, I asked him about it. He said he did like me before, but he wasn't sure if he liked me now. When I eventually said "I'll take that as a no, thanks for being nice about it, I'll see you around.'' I had said that because he told me he had to ''think for a minute'' if he liked me now.

So, I started to cry, because I had been a bit disappointed with the way it had worked out. I was upset because 1) I'm young and naive, and 2) Everybody had told me he liked me, and they were sure it would work out, but it didn't. So, after I had finished bawling, my mom had told me perhaps I ''jumped to conclusions'' since he never directly said no. So, a few minutes later, we were talking about how the feeling was now mutual (he said he kinda liked me, but didn't say anything because he was embarrassed; and I liked him, and I had chickened out from telling him).

But for some reason, I just don't feel it anymore. I mean, I had cried over him, and it just feels like he let me down majorly, and I can't seem to find it in myself to care anymore. My stomach doesn't get butterflies, my heart doesn't pound wildly, or skip a beat. I still have little scenarios in my head about us, but I just…don't feel it. Have you ever felt like this before?

I just signed up for a Gym Membership recently, and I want to do this in a healthy and effective way.
I want to totallllllllllllly firm up my stomach, chest, thighs, and butt.
I'd like to slim down my calves as well.

The gym I go to has just about evvvvvvery piece of equipment you could think of.
My goal is to have all of that accomplished by the time school gets out.

So finally, my questions are:
1) Which types of equipment should I use to accomplish that? (treadmills, bicycle machine, etc??)
2) What foods should I consume to help my weight/inches loss? What should I stay away from?

Thank you in advance.

how much weight could i lose by just running? and how often?? I dont really want to be concerned about calories; i just want to listen to my stomach and learn to eat when i'm hungry.
and right now i dont exercise like at all. i used to be really athletic, but gained like 20 lbs in the past 2 yrs so now i want to get back to 120lbs. any tips??

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Hi,
Im looking for a little advice about general fitness/weight loss.
Im currently 17, (Male), 6'2" and i weigh around 12 stone 7.
This reads of a healthy BMI result but im not happy!
Basically, Iv got stomach fat (not a great deal, just a little excess that needs to be lost) and small man boobs.
Im not comfortable with these and i have tried to start eating healthier and exercising when i can, normally half an hour 4 times a week.
Has any one got any other tips?

My girl friend wants me to set her up a workout plan and diet to lose her stomach and love handles.
I looked around online but couldn't find any tips on running or biking only supplements.
Any help would be much appreciated.
She has a gym pass so no need for home workouts.
Thanks

hey…so im 15 and im only 90lbs but i have like not really "fat" but more like "flub" or something around my stomach. i just want a way of pretty much making my stomach flat without loosing weight (or a way to counter the weight loss). thanks!!!

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hi i have a gut but its hard does that mean i have abs? but my stomach is round and how do i make it tight? like its sticking out it doesnt overlap my waist or anything it just sticks out and does this thing have a name and also when i work on the eliptical will that make my butt and thighs and quads smaller and what are some ecercises that will not put muscle on my butt thighs and wuads just loos fat and my thighs and quads are very muscular how do i lose muscle in that spot?